t-minus 11 days...

So...I start college in 11 days. Well, thanks to a math workshop, I move in on the 18th of August, then start my "Math Camp" [workshop] on the 19th. That stupid thing goes from 9am-4pm. BUT I get to skip a semester of that math class Sooooo good trade off...considering IT IS FREE.
YES FREE.

Anyway, I'm excited to be off on my own soon, but also scared witless. I mean...it'll be awesome, but I'm an only child so I'm use to being taken care of tbh. ALSO...I fail at life and don't have my license even though I'm 17.9 years old. Circumstances peed in my face, so I'm blind and annoyed xD I might renew my permit next week though, just so I can get my license SOON. Hopefully.

I just don't want to be eaten alive by college. I love the internet and have made lots of friends through it...and I hope I don't have to give that up just to be able to get a passing grade.

Uhg...

I like my bedroom. I like my house. I love my cat. I love the threatre room and my dad! :(

But...I just sound like a spoiled little kid. I'm not. I just...I'm scared. I'm excited but scared.

Part of me just wants to bite the bullet...the other part wants me to run like the wind!

Another thing I'm scared of is losing my friends that I'm really close with. These people I think of as siblings...and now I won't see them so often...maybe for even months or more on end! I just...don't want to lose what we have.

I only have one or two friends going to college with me...but I have this feeling I'll see them even less than my best friends back home.

Well...let's hope I live.