I feel like a real college student

50th BLOG ENTRY!
~o.o~

ANYWHO.
Last night was fun. I went out with the other tenor girl to go see a movie, with her love interest [more people were gonna come - but I had fun being the third wheel]. Anyway, the World Theatre [free theatre on campus that shows movies late] was showing the Proposal. I hate chick flicks - BUT IT WAS A MOVIE :¬O

Anywho, I was a little bored out of my mind, so I was watching the boy with black, curly hair in front of me...who was...sniffing?
Oh my God...did he just wipe his eye?
YES FOLKS - I found a crying boy. He was more interesting then the movie. >.>
AFTER, I hung out with them a bit - and we went back to my dorm, before tenorgirl got drunk texted, and we ended up at the OE, where other MALE <3 friends of her's came. I like them :3

I even claimed one.

What? I need backup if my other boy doesn't work out xD
*cough*

We hung out with them - the one I mentally claimed was actually sitting next to me. :]
He's totally my type too. Tall, skinny, and a bit dorky. YES.
And for some reason I like his nose. It kinda goes WHOO like the bottom half of a C.
XD
YES HIS NOSE HAS A SOUND-EFFECT.

After awhile, we went back to tenorgirl's room, because her drunk friends said they put a random stranger in her bed. I had to see this. I went with her, her drunk friends, and her love interest [other guy friends were still eating :'(] and...it turns out they put a giant pillow under her covers.

God I love drunk people.

ANYWAY, we ended up playing Egyptian War...well it was me, tenorgirl and her love interest. Literally it was me with 1 card and loveinterest with the rest of the deck at one point...but I won ;)

THEN her percussion/trombone friend [one of the guy friends at the OE] came...but he didn't bring nose-whoosh boy [his bathroom buddy - since they have a connected bathroom like me] - which I was kinda sad about. Apparently he was REALLY tired. The poor thing <3

ANYWAY - so we played Go Fish...then talked and talked and chilled and giggled - and commented how I acted/looked stoned. Apparently I am naturally stoned. My eyes were kinda pink from it being late [it was 2am about at this time] and my contacts were making my eyes tired. And I'm just spacey. So they made a joke that my body could make me stoned when I was bored. xD
AND we had a rant why smoke was icky.
I love these people :]

Her drunk roomie sobered up, and contributed more then just singing along to iTunes.
SEVERAL HOURS LATER, Trombone/percussion guy and I (who live across campus) were like "hehe sleep now plz?"
And we left at nearly 5am.

CAMPUS IS SPOOKY WHEN NO ONE IS AWAKE OMG...or rather "when no one is OUTSIDE".
I felt like an RA would just pop out and drug/drunk test us...then get really mad when they just learned we were walking back from chilling with people WITHOUT SUBSTANCES OMG :¬O

xD

No one popped out though. Trombone/percussion boy lives in the building next to mine so yeah. I'm glad I didn't have to make that walk alone xD

THEN I went to bed and woke up at nearly noon.
w00t.

Tomorrow is the video thing.
YAY.

And I need to do homework today.
And laundry.
And gym...with tenorgirl :]

Yeha.

IMADEITOMG

=D
EMAIL:
[Ok, we are meeting at the tat parking lot at 6:45 Saturday morning, there will be rides. I'm not sure how long the day will be but it is a 2 hour drive up, we need to be quick when setting up and getting going, I really don't want to be back very late though.

See you there]

=O

I MADE IT.
OH MY FRIGGIN GOOOOOOOOOD.
hehe "good"
>.>

ANYWAY.
YAY.
Everyone was like "it's a win win situation!" Since I either got honored or got to go home. =D
I AM A HAPPY CAMPER.
I actually danced. Ask my dad.
I was talking to him while dancing.

=D

AND I'm [hopefully] going to go see a movie with other budz tonight =]
The Proposal. Not my style - will review lattah.

I ALSO NEED TO DO MY LAUNDRY. I'm scared. I've done it at home. But not here. O_O

MOMMY I'M SCARED.

:(

FREAKING OUT.

So - the video shoot CONTINUES on Saturday. But there's a catch. There were too many grips last weekend. I've been emailing the dude about it - and I was asking if the shoot was this weekend. He said yes - but he needed to eliminate some of the grips, then asked if I could make it this weekend. I said yes. He said he'd let me know tomorrow.

o_O

I'm actually near breathing-in-a-bag status. Why? Because I had a weird day.
Didn't need this sort of thing on my mind.

What if...I don't make the cut? This is basically a competition now. If I don't make it...I get to go home. BUT I WANNA MAKE IT REALLY BAD. OMG. If I don't make it, that basically means that my other movie-grip-deals I had been making will fall through, my beautiful love interest will get away without an exchange of phone numbers or spit, and I will probably break something in annoyance.

...and I just totally sounded like a whore just now xD

>.>
FORTUNE COOKIE TOLD ME TO.
"Be aggressive - go after the tattooed Virgo."
XDDDDDD

ANYWAY - I will not be a happy camper if I don't make it.
What if I wasn't good enough?
What if - even though I had fun - they all hated me. They're all just really good liars. What if I'm not meant for the movie industry?

Ordinarily I wouldn't be ranty like this...but for some reason today I just feel completely insecure and worthless. What I need is a hug from a cute boy.

>.>

Oh - and on a side note, I love my nose-stud. It actually gives me more confidence. I honestly fail in the ways of my own self esteem, and this is actually helping. I still think of myself as that fat kid with braces and acne from middle school. I know I'm not, but inside I am.

I really need to get over that.
Maybe that's why I'm the girl here that seems to know the least about boys and relationships. My longest one [and really only true one] lasted 2 months. The other one barely counted. I just need to figure things out I guess.

My fate rests in an email.
o_o

o________O

...my life has been a bit dull.
Um.
I got a box from home that was supposed to come on my birthday. It had the face cleaner I forgot and some happy face balloons.

o.o

Um.
I don't want to go to FYS in less then an hour.
I'm bringing my notebook, dammit.
>.>

Um.

I finished my math homework.

Um.

I've done a ridiculous amount of Photoshop recently.

I've actually heard variations of the term BS here.
Other animals.
Horse.
Otter.
Beaver.
Moose.
Emu.
Elephant.
and my personal favorite.
ELMO.

XD

And that's my brain.

~o.o~

FIRE ALARMS SUCK

...at 2am.
O_O
o_o
._.
Yeah.
I made new friends on my floor though xD
Some guy forgot his shoes >.>
"DUDE HOW DID YOU FORGET YOUR SHOES?"
Actual quote.
I made friends with some of the guys both on my floor and other floors too.
We were all freezing, tired, and mildly annoyed by the loud noise and seizure inducing lights.
EH EH EH EH
*strobe*
EH EH EH EH
*strobe*

It looks like a lightning storm from the outside, looking in.

We discussed kicking the fire alarm until it shut off...but then I brought up a valid point. What if it set off the sprinklers?
Yeah.

It took like 10 minutes or more for them to finally be like LOL NVM
-_-

But hey - met people.
Go me.

o.<
*curls up in ball*

...the after glow of video day 1

[NOTE: Please click all images in the following post to go to the original page of the image on deviantART]

I hurt.
Everywhere.
It's past midnight now, and I only left my dorm room once. I woke up after about 14 or 16 hours of sleep...and I'm kinda x.x still. I only left my dorm room to get food once today [I ate cake for lunch/breakfast] and yeah. I worked on this Photoshop image ALL DAY:


I'm in love with that image. It's been in my head for ages. It turned out...exactly like I wanted it to. I even entered it in a competition! Just...happiness.

I still keep thinking about the video shoot [while avoiding moving] and can't help but just smile. In my deviantART inbox this morning, I had two deviations of other people's waiting for me.




o.o

Weird, huh?

xxxxxx

I'm excited for the next video shoot. I'm glad I have time to heal before it starts up again. I might just go -thud- if it were today. I'm not sure when it is - I'm currently awaiting that email. I'm excited!

I'm probably going to be doing a video every weekend. I've already probably gotten in on another video already - about being sucked into a videogame. THERE WILL BE SWORD FIGHT.

Best conversation ever.

This means going home will be rare. I'm kinda sad about this - but it's kinda good at the same time. Forces me to not feel like I'm vacationing here - but actually living here. I'm worried about my cat though. I miss him already. I can't just email or call him. I have to be there to hold him and cuddle him. Grr.

I want my kitty!

Maybe there will be a weekend where I have nothing to do.
I kinda hope so.
I want to stay busy with my new [job] TAT.

Life is just very surreal at the moment. No one is on campus but me and a few people. I ate dinner in the DC at like...6pm, and there was only about 20 people in there. Normally at that time, there's a line out the door and most of the tables are filled...probably closer to 100 or so. It's weird.

Then I keep flashing on yesterday and it's so...surreal. And BOTH my besties have texting now. Like...am I in a parallel Universe where I actually have a strange thing called luck? Whoa. Weird. I must have changed Universes when I walked through that thick fog. Or maybe when I turned 18? Hmmm.

With the day after I turned 18 - with the epic aquarium with friends and family...to the day after with video and certain people...
I'm just so happy.

It's weird to go from so emo to so happy in like a few posts. I'm just valuing this amount of luck I have. I know it's not forever or even for the day - nor hour. But I will enjoy it.

Goodnight moon.
<3

VIDEO - Day 1

It. Was. Amazing.
I got to the parkinglot at 6:27 [I didn't want to be late for 6:30am] in the morning, and there was a group sitting in front of the TAT building. One girl a remembered from my lecture class for TAT - the rest were a mystery.

Eventually we loaded into cars, and I ended up squeezed between two guys in a car that was driven by the chick that was supposed to be the stranger that drove me to the meeting. She said sorry about the earlier mishap. I forgave her :]

Anyway - we got to the old threatre and then we UNLOADED. o.o
LOTS AND LOTS of time later, we introduced ourselves, and were like HAI MAI NAME IZ AND IM A.

I'm a grip.
A baby grip.
Meaning...a n00b that can move that, hold that, find that, balance that, and disappear on command. I AM NINJA.

A redhead guy that I was sitting next to on the way there turned out to be the head grip. We taped stuff up and blah blah blah. There were a ton of other grips - most appeared to be older than me. Not hard - I turned 18 on Thursday.

People were all really nice - and there was a really epic guy that caught my eye - but MORE ABOUT THAT LATER.

Basically - if someone asked for a grip, I'd ninja over and be like "=D" in my cute, adorable, way. I was the youngest and shortest. I WAS THE ADORABLE FRESHIE BABY!
And they all loved me :3

Anywho - once things got started, it got kinda fast paced. I made a good impression on the head-grip after awhile, and he kept getting me to do special jobs. I was supposed to push the dolly at one point - but the only guy that I didn't really get along with and seemed to have it in for me at all times...was like "NO HE DO IT" -points to other grip-
Makes sense since I'd be pushing two full grown people, a giant cart, and an expensive camera. I GOT TO HOLD THE WIRE <3

Harder than it sounds. I nearly killed the dolly-pusher-man. 0=D
>.>

People actually left when most of it was set up, since they got bored. I stayed. I hung out in the stairwell with two guys at one point. One was like...my favorite. The other was just chill. I'm probably working on the chill one's movie as soon as I'm done with this one. The cute one was a Junior and I noticed him as soon as I sat in front of the TAT building. :] Adorkable. For. The. Win.

I hung out with the cute one most of the time xD
We had a long discussion about movies and where he came from :-O
HE PAINTED STARRY, STARRY NIGHT [my t-shirt] FOR AN OIL-PAINTING FINAL.
fate.
>.>

I will get his number next Saturday, dammit. I don't know his last name sooo there's no way to contact him :\ Whatevvvvvv.
I HOPE I will see him next weekend :3
MAYBE ON CAMPUS :¬O

They all kinda adopted me, and I let them. There were two freshie girls, other than myself...but they left. I was the hardcore one xD

The movie itself was a bit...well I'll see what she does with in it post. It was well shot, though. I signed some sort of waver, so I'm sure I'm not allowed to say its title or anything specific SOOOO >.>

My-guy and I were like -bored- on a couch later - just watching the people do stuff and act-ness. It was so funny when they were like "GRIP!" we both shot to our feet and were like "WHAT?"
...they only needed us to push a cord out of the shot. And you know what? TEAMWORK.
XD

THEN IT WAS TIME TO PACK UP...twelve hours later x.x
I almost fell asleep a few times while waiting for something to do. The headgrip actually did. We poked him.

Anyway, we packed up. That was a paiiinnn. Then they parked the trucks/cars in front of the threatre to shove our stuff in. THEN...

DUN
DUN
DUNNNNNNNN

...the Metermaid.
From hell

She gave the head tech a TICKET. He's already wanting to eat babies and puppies, but then he was like >=O
o_o
We were all like
xP

So we parked across the street.
And Jaywalked.
Way to go. Now we're actually obstructing traffic.
Myguy [you don't get to learn his name...I don't do names in the blog, I decided] and I nearly died a few times - especially when we had to take the dollytrack tube that's sixfeet long. He was like "I GOT IT" and I'm like "NORMAL PEOPLE USE TWO PEOPLE" and he's like "I GOT IT - BUT YOU CAN SPOT ME" so I followed him and made sure he didn't kill people xD

Nearly took out two.

>.>
BUT I SAVED THE DAY.

So we had to cross the street to pack stuff - and that was scary. Busy street. Heavy stuff. GO. Meep. The cameraman told me stories about how cops tend to be part of every capstone movie. Like they were doing a suicide scene [we're in his flashback mode now - not something that happened in the movie I'm working on] with a gunshot through the head in a car.

So they windshield was cracked, covered in fake blood and grapefruit [brains - duh] and the crew was covered in the fake blood too - because the squirter malfunctioned and was like WEEEEEEEEEEE *squirt* They also had fake bullet casings everywhere, a fake bloody gun, a fake bloody grave, and did I mention they were ALL COVERED IN BLOOD?

-cue joggers-
"OMG!"

They called the cops.
"KEEP YOUR HANDS WHERE I CAN SEE THEM!" the cops were all screaming, with THEIR HANDS ON THEIR PISTOLS. Good thing a TAT teacher came and was like "DON'T KILL MY BABIES!"

xD

Same cameraguy nearly got arrested for "horrible cries against women" when he was bored and throwing manikins off a three story building.
He might just be my new hero.
xD

Everyone went their separate ways [meaning I stalked my cargroup away from the set and myboy] and they were all like "SO WHAT DID YOU THINK OF YOUR FIRST SHOOT? =D" and yeahhh :]

AWESOMENESS.
I totally feel at home on a video set. I have found my calling...I just don't know WHAT I want to do on it yet o_o

I don't know when we shoot again. Either next weekend or the one after. I hope next.
I need his number xD

>.>
0=]

And I don't go home, even though I have Sunday through Tuesday. o_o
Parents can't...
:p

...friends gone.
o_o

SOOOO I'll spend tomorrow, Monday, and Tuesday...I'm not sure.
I'm sure I'll blog about it.