9.17.2009

OHMYGOD.

Well.
My favorite band.
Is.
The Myriad.
Click here to see why they have earned my respect in the first place.
But why am I repeating this?
I got this odd message in my inbox on facebook:
"Can you help us find a central CAS show at a college on 10/28 or 10/29?

-Tim"
Who the hell is Tim, why is the message entitled Myriad, and why do I feel like I'm confused?

So I respond:
"Hey Tim,
Umm...I know I sound kinda blond, but what's a "CAS"? And why would I know where one is at a college on those dates? :\ Sorry If I'm missing the obvious - I tend to do that :]
~Hayley"

Later I got this back:
"sorry, typo

I meant "central CA"

The Myriad would like to find a place to play on 10/28 in central CA at a college."

O_O
WAIT.
WHAT?

After flailing around which my roomie missed because she went home today [which I'm doing in like 30 minutes xD], and realizing it was probably their agent, I replied:
"OH! Wow. I feel honored for being asked :]
Well, I go to CSUMB (California State University of Monterey Bay) which is on an abandoned military base, in Seaside/Monterey Bay. Less than a mile from the ocean. The normal concert venue here got closed though, but there is so much space around here, I'm sure there could be room to set up a stage. Plus the old buildings just make a cool setting.
Hmm...other colleges...
I really am not that well-versed in other schools in the area, considering I stopped looking after I saw this one :\ San Jose State University might not be a bad one too, but I'm just biased, because my home town is right there :]

Hope that kinda helps :\
Sorry if I just added to the confusion.
Again, I feel honored for being asked!

Cheers,
Hayley"

What? Did I just push my school down the throat of a band on tour?
Um. YES.
>=D
So yeah. Idk why, but that band loves me...and I love them.
So yes.
I am fangirling.
YEAH.
8D
If they come here...omg.

Now I need to get Demetri Martin up in this place >.>

9.16.2009

OF THE WEEK!

Welcome to hump day, and I just decided that I should have some sort of 'of the week' to entertain you creepers who enjoy reading about my life :]

My of the week shiz will not necessarily be FROM THE WEEK [like new to the net that week] but something I stumbled [maybe quite literally] across, during the week.

For now, I'll stick to youtube...who I kinda hate atm. It kept me entertained for like 3 ours so far today, so I should just shut up...but they have pissed me off a lot in the past.

At least they don't have a 74 minute cap. DO YOU HEAR ME MEGAVIDEO?
Anyway.
Ze movie.

Writing 95. WTF.

Turned in a rough draft of an essay. POS. If you don't know what that stands for...let's just say it wasn't my best work. I didn't really try, because it's a rough draft. I just like getting my ideas down, you know? Anyway, we GET THEM BACK...and everything is out of 6. Six being the goal in life. The top of the escalator that's going down [meaning it takes a lot of work to get there, and basically no one does].

My score my my essay:
Focus: 6
Development/Structure: 5
Organization: 6
Mechanics: 6

o_o
Can I just like not show up to class anymore, Professor?
I reached the goal by the end of the semester on a bad rough draft of an essay I didn't try on. Like...what happens when I write something good? Will she frame it like my roomie said? Probably.

Like...wtf.

MY BRAIN IN THE MORNING.

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[O.o] - O rly?
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[¬.¬] - Ya rly.
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[O.O] - NO WAI!
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=D

[tried to post this yesterday, but the internet was suddenly under maintenance on campus >_>]
Good day!
So.
Went to TAT, and we took a semi-easy quiz...though I brain-farted on one question >.<
Then we talked about...video :o

THEN we got into groups [against our own freewill] and I saw my boss from the capstone, headgripguy. HE'S IN MY CLASS? Weird. Anyway, not a big fan of my group, but w/e. We started coming up with script ideas with another group for the interview movie we're doing next week. YA.
THEN THE LAB :D

We had to pitch the scripts that we had written awhile ago, to the class/teacher. Some peoples' sucked. Like. TWO PEOPLE ARE TALKING IN A DORM ROOM ABOUT BOYS OMG.
o_o
Are you fucking serious?

WAY TO BE ORIGINAL.

Anyway, the point of the 'game' was to convince the CLASS to make your FILM. Only like six out of the THIRTY would be made. Six. That's like...less then a quarter of the class. BINKY AMOUNT. So after awhile, I finally got up there [about halfway through the pitches] and do mine.

I explained how it's a small cast. Two people, really. "Well - really just a man and his hand."
-laughter-
Way to make a jacking-off joke in class, during a pitch, girl.

>.<

I went with it though, acting on my feet I laughed too and was like, "WAY TO HAVE A DIRTY MIND. =D
And my professor was like, "Well I didn't even think that until you said it."
Tehe.

I pitched. I was epic. I think I even curtsied with pants on. I heard everyone whispering about how original my idea was. =D

THEN WE VOTED [after like a million more pitches]

We closed our eyes and raised our hands for the three scripts we wanted to see turned into films. I was SOOOO nervous. I voted for my friend's [which was about a waiting room to hell...yeah we're friends for a reason xD] and a zombie one.

Professor turned the board around, with just the ones that passed upon it.
Drum roll please?
buhhhdrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrruum
And Puppetmaster made it.
[name of script]
OH MY GOD.
I ABOUT DIED OF HAPPINESS.
And someone said, "OMG YAY THE SOCK PUPPET ONE WON!"
<3.
Only in TAT will people be so excited about sock puppets.
I love these people.

After I found out that my TAT buddy and I voted for each other's videos. We both like surreal weirdness.

We then learned about lighting, and it was nice to learn the logistics behind what I was doing all Saturday.

Lunch time.
I open my phone to see I got a text from my friend like 20min previous, saying that she was eating. I poked her again to see if she still was there. She was. Right in front of the DC I get a text - we're done sorry :(
O-o
THEY WALK PAST ME!

o.o

Then I go inside [by myself] and find a veggie burger because everything else looks gross. Plus I needed something healthier. I was sitting by myself eating, when I friend walks past. I see her and talk to her for a little bit. Right when I got in, I noticed this really perky actor from the set I had been working on for the past two weekends. Did I mention he's ridiculously hot? He sees me and gets that stupid grin [meaning omg I want to lick him now grin] and walks ACROSS THE DC to come see me...and even waits in line behind my friend who I'm talking to, to speak to me. First thing he said with that stupid [cute] grin on his face was, "Omg hi HAYLEY!"
:O

#1 thing I've accepted: People have a hard time remembering my name.
#2: Boys don't remember names.

So that was weird. But cool. Last we talked was Saturday [welcome to Tuesday] and that was the first time we ever talked. o-O

So he asks me about my day and I tell him about my video. In hindsight I should have asked him to be the male lead. But I'm stupid. He goes off on how he's got something similar going on, and about the video script he had to shoot recently. It was funny.
He asks if I would be going to the cast/crew party that the director might be throwing. I said YES. And we talked. And talked. And talked.
I got out of class at 11:50. DC at 11:58. Ate alone until 12:02. HE found me at like 12:03. I got back to my dorm at 12:25.

Did I mention he's out of my league?
:(
BUT he seems soooo sweet and kinda into me o_o
YET ANOTHER OLDER BOY <3

But yeah. He was like "HOPEFULLY see you around! BYE HAYLEY!" When I think he actually needed to get somewhere. He was already done, btw, when he first noticed me sitting there. On his way out. THEN he saw me. Halted. O_O
Cue the above xD

*pinches self*

So I got back to my dorm, swooned into my chair, then my roomie asks if I want to go buy food at the grocery store. We go and I buy myself a giant pack of cup-o-noodle and Honey Bunches of Oats [with Almonds] YEAH. FOOD!

THEN I went to math [ew] and took an easy quiz [yay] and the activity we did was easy [yay] and the teacher called me smart :O [yay]. Math over YAY.

I got back to my dorm and pulled the most college-thing-ever. While removing nail polish, I was reading a chapter for my writing class, and talking to people online...with my feet up on my CASE of cup-o-noodle. XD
THEN with one foot still covered in nail polish, my roomie and I went on a laundry adventure. Neither of us have done it here.

So we threw our stuff in and washed it.
Time to dry? Well - I was out of change. Our change machine was broken. We went to the BUILDING over that way ^ and asked if they had a change machine. Then we found her friend and asked for change. He told us to put it in the soda machine and ask for change back.

...
Why didn't I think of that?
Eventually stuff was dry, homework was done, emails sent to both my TAT teacher about capstones and my RA about the stuff I didn't get from coming a week early. Yeah!
Got emails back from both. My RA actually HAND DELIVERED me a water bottle and t-shirt. I feel loved <3 Capstone teacher email was given to me by my other TAT teacher. So that's being squared away.

God I'm awesome.

What an AWESOME day.
<3.

9.14.2009

I'm oooookayy

Deep breath
Shower
Cheered up by friends.
Replied to his email all relaxed and chill like. I even said, "My offer to hang is still open :) if you find yourself on campus and bored - shoot me a text or call. I'm quite entertaining =]"

Oh yes - I flirted after being shut down.
I'm that awesome.

...um....that's all that's new.
I'm not longer emo.
I think I'm mildly bi-polar =O

Well that was a day killer

Hubbyboy emailed me back. Very him. Played off the inside jokes I hinted at in my email. Lots of voice in his words. :) BUT. BUT BUT BUT. The last line killed me.
I'm glad I got your number though, because now I can call you to help out when I shoot something. My number is ########### if you ever need help with any shoots your doing.

Shoots? Film? Not...hanging out? Like - I said [right before my number] "If you want to hang or whaterrr here's mai digits"

And his reply was like -suddenly professional-

NO.
NONONONONONO.
NO.
>=O

So...this guy that I basically fell for quite quickly and very very hard - and I thought he did the same over me...basically just said "yay professional friends".
:(
I'm not gonna lie. It hurts. Made me question my appearance, my personality, my everything.

I'm relatively good at reading guys...now I feel like I don't know anything. I am so confused. I am hurt. And I am kinda grumpy and sad now. I have the epic desire to just say "Fuck you week" and go home somehow. I know I should just grow up - or be happy that he wants to stay in contact, I guess. My friend was like "email him back all chill too. Pretend like he didn't just blow off your metaphorical balls and be like 'yo cool dude 8D' ish-ness.

But...I don't know.

I hate how I seem to set myself up for shit like this. I keep forgetting that my family has no luck at all. Amazingly hot guy that you get along with perfectly and you have instant Chemistry and spark? No - he's not into you at all. Wants to be professional friends. Meaning he wouldn't want to see me outside of the fucking video world.

Yes, there are "other guys". But like...WHAT THE FUCK. My brain is annoyed by the mixed messages. Grab my hand to see if I was gonna bleed to death from the tiny cut I got from my knife - but not want to just chill?

Boys are stupid.
I made it clear I was into him in the email.
And he was like VIDEO SHOOT HELP.

o_o

Literally every time something good can happen in the personal realm for me, it normally shatters. First boyfriend - that was a rip in the space-time-continuum. But I was never that happy. Why? No one seemed to approve of the relationship. I felt like I was being glared at and even judged by everyone. He'd come up to me from behind, and my friends would walk away. True, he was a bit of an a-hole...but I just wanted to enjoy it. But I couldn't.
Second boyfriend.
If you can call him that.
One moment he's like "I missed you <3" whenever we talked. The next he's like trying to pick fights and shit. And that ended. Never really was a relationship because he kept canceling our FIRST DATE.

God.

And in that tiny paragraph was my ENTIRE love life. That's it. Sure there were some guys that were into me that I ran away from. But like...those are the two major ones. I just...I see happy people everywhere in relationships. And I just wonder...how do they do that? People go on for YEARS, and I can't even find someone to love me for over two months. Or someone to love me at all.

I don't get it. I really don't. Do I just repel the people I'm interested in somehow? Do I attract all the scum of the Universe into my pants somehow - leaving me running and screaming into the horizon as they stalk me??? I guess I should lower my standards...? Maybe not find the perfect guy, but anyone who's not repulsive and I can stand being around somewhat?

The only people who want me are assholes, creepers, stalkers, and younger than me. Now that I found a cute, sweet, OLDER, non-creeper...he's like LOLNVM.

I'm so confused.

I tried to turn it the other way around - maybe MY email was too shifty for him to read...but I forwarded both halves to my friend...who read it with her roomie. The consensus was stated way, way above.
Professional friendship.

o_o

I'm not crazy

ALRIGHT...so if you know me, you know one of my FAVORITE MOVIES OF ALL TIME...is Donnie Darko. That mindfuck movie that just makes you go LOLWHATOMG.
But...I'm a little worried atm, to be honest. Not good when your life emulates a movie, right? I know like anything, if you look for it - like a symbol or number, it'll be there. It was always there, but you have to pay attention to find it. Not looking for it? Then you won't see it. It's as simple as that. Sort of like when my friends and I had a thing about 44. I haven't even really thought about that until now...and I really haven't seen much of that number at all.

Anyway, so the issue.
WARNING: DONNIE DARKO SPOILERS


The part with the airplane going towards the dark cloud. Yeah - the part at the end. Um...I've seen that several times in the last TWO DAYS. On the way to San Fran. for the video shoot, there were LIGHTNING storms above the area. So - big giant scary cloud.
And I basically saw this:

Airplane going towards it - at that size. Yeah. Then I saw another airplane. I get it, because San Fran. has an airport [I think O_O] but it was weird to see a screencap from a movie in real life, you know?
I saw it again yesterday, when walking back to my dorm, while STILL WAITING FOR an email/text/call from hubbyboy. *continues to stare at phone*
Plane flew over my head towards the big scary cloud, that later rained all over campus.

Just kinda weird, you know.
Next month is October. The entire movie takes place in October. o_o
People have been talking about Halloween suddenly. That's the last day of the movie.
o_o

I'm not crazy.
I just have an overactive imagination, right?

o_o

9.13.2009

This isn't product placement

This is showing respect for something that deserves more attention.
A single band.
The Myriad.

Music Video:

Click to go to youtube

They are a not-too-popular band that I simply love. They are unknown by many standards. On their Facebook, they only have 2,000 fans...which is kinda nothing, compared to bigger bands.

Unlike most celebs and shiz that have facebooks, they actually do things on facebook other then be like WE ARE GOING TO THIS CITY THEN, and ignore all comments. They respond to comments. They actually ASK what songs they want played - and listen. ASK what cities they should go to...and listen.

And for one more eventful one, I'll just quote it:
The Myriad: what are you doing this weekend?
-people comments-
Me: Video shoot all day Saturday :)
Then homework Sunday :(
And I think it's really cool how you guys actually do stuff on facebook. Humanizes the faces behind the awesome music ♥
-more peoples comments-

So yeah. It was cool that they asked.
But this is how it got cooler, as I read today when checking to see their concert dates, since they were thinking of playing in San Deigo [boo - not close enough] but nothing was confirmed.

The Myriad: Haley Hawkins wins for the most interesting weekend because she is doing a video shoot. Overall, our fans do way too much homework.

:o
MOI?
I'll ignore the typo and just hug them.
I FEEL SO LOVED OMG.
They actually READ my comment and typed MY name!
-swoons-

I shouldn't be all fan-girly over this, but I am.

For the fact that they haven't let their slight fame go to their heads, and the fact that I love their music/sound, listen to the band called the Myriad. Do it. They are awesome.

And I found a rare gem from them: Get on Plane ACOUSTIC

Well sorta. I like the part where it is what is says...but it's not the whole song :(

But yeah.
I fangirled.
I'm forcing it into your face.
YEAH.

THE MYRIAD.
HIT THAT YO.

...or I'll find you.
And make you.
With Gaff tape.

GAFF TAPE.

In the beginning...
There was duct tape. This miracle sticky thing that held the Universe together. People used it for art, to fix things, and even to shut people up.

Then there was TAT...
They handed me this roll of black tape.

I looked at it, puzzled. It didn't feel like duct tape. It was thinner. Felt more like material. It wasn't gross-sticky, but held. It tore easy? What was this amazing substance?

GAFFER'S TAPE.
Known as Gaff tape for short.

In the video world, it is Chuck Norris.

Hubbyboy and I realized the true awesome of Gaff tape yesterday.
There was this soft-box [a diffuser of direct light from normally a c-stand since you don't need the heft of a baby-stand] and the joint that was holding it up couldn't support both the light and the softbox, so hubbyboy was in charge of...holding up the light. o.<
SO - he was like GAFF TAPE GIRL!
and I flew over with my magical red cape.
[alright he asked for the tape from me but w/e]
And together we taped up the light so it would stay. We found the cool points [alright I found the cool points] and we taped it up and shiz. Then we were afraid of it ripping and bursting into flames. So we just sat there and stared.

There was a small rip in the tape, which I fixed before it turned into anything serious, when he was setting up the Glide-cam. The tape held it for like 10 hours or something with it being on about 7 hours or so. And it held.

Our consensus:
Gaff tape is magical.
It makes whoever is holding it magical.
And it is better than duct tape.

;)

Video Shoot - Day 2

So...yesterday [because I konked out when I got back and didn't have a chance to do much before I fell asleep] was the second day of the video shoot - since I made the cut. THERE WERE SO LITTLE PEOPLE THERE OMG.

Anyway, I was one of two newish grips - though the other guy [hubbyboy - see previous video day rant - was the other] is a Junior and a transfer student...so I was the only Freshmen. But I totally held my own.

ANYWAY, I got into a carpool with hubbyboy, boomman [guy with the boom mike], and an actress who I thought had a pretty voice. We all got along epically well - and apparently have a lot in common. We even saw lightning.

Oh - did I mention the shoot was at the Director's Grandmother's house? In San Francisco? That's at least 2 hours from Monterey, BTW.

Anyway, lots of talking and bonding later, we show up and...sit there. The other car fails at life. Like forever and a muffin later [her grammie served us doof <3] I, hubbyboy, and leadgripman [lead grip man], set off to save the Universe. Lighting guy was fired - and there was a big issue that the higher ups were keeping from the lower downs. Woo.

SO...I got instructions from leadgripman, and hubbyboy and I took flight, setting up lights, adjusting lights, experimenting with the magic of Gaff tape [the next post will be dedicated to that], risking our lives and chance of spiders bites, just to cover a window with a tarp, risk being hit by lighting, by standing outside and setting up large metal C-stands and babystands [this is all technical terms I kid you not]. And yeah.

I'll get into detail about a few of the adventures now...
In no particular order because it's only like 9am.

The nom nom bush
So hubbyboy, leadgripman, and I had to cover some windows for a night scene. We couldn't cover them from a tarp inside...because that would look like ass. So we had to go outside. There was a big bush there. Just sitting there. Ready to eat our souls. Leadgripman is terrified of spiders. SO - he sends his kids into the bush with a rickety wooden ladder we found, only holding a branch for us. So I'm holding the ladder with a roll of gaff tape, while hubby boy precariously balances atop the thing. We got it done.
We be awesome.

The Bee Deja Vu
SO there was a bee in the house. Me being me, I was like *points* BEE.
So hubbyboy is like CUP. And I found a cup. And I put it over the bee, then admit last time I tried this [literally two days ago] the next part failed. So he took over with a piece of paper and replaced me by the cup. He failed at the next part. Then the guy that lives in my building simply opened the window and let it out.
We were quiet for a bit...

Gaff tape is magic
SEE NEXT SOON TO COME POST

And I might add more later.
Still kinda tired.

Anyway, there was some down-time, so I hung around with hubbyboy and some of the cast. There was totally this guy that wanted me. He was the beefy male lead. He was epic though. AND A REDHEAD <3 They are rare so I treasure every one. XD Anyway, we played the game where you write down the name of a famous person on a piece of paper, and hand it to the person on your right. Then everyone takes their new paper and places it on their forehead.
Hubbyboy had Napoleon Dynamite stuck to his forehead.
"DO I HAVE MAGIC POWERS?"
We all died laughing.
And had QUIET ON SET yelled at us, even though they weren't shooting...causing leadgrip to put on a cape and fly to the rescue xD
He's my MBMOM. He really is. Leadgripman totally adopted me.

Anyway, the day continued like this. Once leadgripman fell asleep after tell us to stay inside just in case they needed us...so we ran away xD
And played the above game >.>

We also played Scatigories [sp?] in the living room away from the set because we were bored and they kicked us out xD NOT BECAUSE WE WERE LOUD...because they had nothing for us to grip.
:\

At like 8 we stopped shooting, and we were allowed to leave...well actually only my car, because Boomman was sleepy and directorchick was mean to him all day and felt bad. SO YEAH. Then he was like "I need FUEL". And we stopped at in-and-out. FIRST TIME EVER. It was Foogasmic. OMG. Everyone gave me a hard time for not eating there before xD

AND I LEARNED SOMETHING: I am the youngest person to be working as a grip on a TAT set EVER. Well Freshmen are uncommon...and most Freshies that are brought in are like people who came back to college or took a year off or w/e. I turned 18 like just over a week ago. Yeah. :3

We ate and ate and they taught me the secrets of In-and-Out, and I felt adopted xD
Everyone in the car was 21+.
Boomman: 21
Hubbyboy: 21
Actress-chick-with-the-pretty-voice...let's call her actresschick: 22.
I WAS DUH BABY 8D

Then we left.
It was 9 then.
Our conversations got funnier and funnier as the night wore on. We talked about campus, the 'effed up behind the scenes of CSUMB, teachers, how I was ahead of everyone ever in the TAT major that's a Freshie, and just about everybody and everything. What? We had two hours and falling asleep to kill xD

THEN we got to campus and Boomman was like "if I didn't have class tomorrow" [yes a sunday] "I'd invite you all over to hang"
:(
Stupid class...
So my plan was to get hubbyboy's # when Boomman dropped us off in front of the TAT building. But...he dropped me off in front of my building. Hubbyboy was actually making excuses why he needed to get out too.

In the end it was just me getting out, waving over my shoulder.

:(

I was freaking out because I didn't know his last name, have his phone number, know his schedule...and to top it all off, he lives off campus. So I felt like I'd never see Hubbyboy again. The other two live on campus so I'd see them around.

So I got inside and I was happy from the day, but also really depressed. I actually left my building two seconds later, hoping to see Hubbyboy drive by. He didn't.

I slept bad all night, trying to figure out how to make contact with him.
THEN I WOKE UP AND BECAME BRILLIANT.
I emailed the dude that's been emailing me about the shoots and shiz, asking for his email addy.
I has it.
I emailed him :3
I HAVE CONTACT!
-touchdown dance-
He hasn't responded yet, but tbh I haven't gotten along so instantly with anyone before...even like my best friends in the world. Maybe I'm just changing into a more open person...but it was weird. Even if he's gay/taken, I just want to keep him as a friend, then.

But yeah.
:)